well on thursdays, it is story time at the local library. so, today we headed off to the library, and the kids had a puppet show, (very cute) and then they got to each make their own puppets. vanessa is learning how to use scissors still, so it was a bit of a challenge to help her make a puppet while trying to nurse a squirmy 6 month old! whew! another mom and I were talking about sprouting an extra set of arms, and we thought how convenient it would be to be like that one cartoon, stitch! yeah, how nice that would be to have not one but two extra arms. my mom is a big help, but alot of the times lately, she doesnt feel well. her health has not been up to par the past year. it is a very hard thing to see. my mom has always been a very hard working determined strong woman, and for me to see her in so much pain is very difficult. i pray for her, and know that one day soon the answers will come to those doctors, and they will finally be able to diagnose her and heal her.
on another note, i am actually thinking of returning to school this fall. i am half way there! i would already be entering the program this fall, but i had my baby girl so that set me back a few semesters. i still dont know if i will return, so i am contemplating going part time. i guess part time is better than no time. it will just be very DIFFICULT with three kids, all my pets, and my husband. dont get me wrong, my husband is very supportive, but lets face it, men were not designed to be mothers, at least my rough n tough guy isn't. last spring he had the kids for 4 hours every night while i was in class, i had a tough schedule that spring, and he couldnt get them into a schedule. i would come home late every night and 99% of the time, you guessed it, they were stil up, bouncing off the walls. i don't know how well he will do with 3 children this time. although it will be only for 2 hours, 2 days out of the week, max!
all of my dreams are currently on hold. that is the price one pays to be a mother. i know what i want, and i will eventually have RN behind my name, but am not sure when exactly that will happen. i see so many obstacles in front of me right now, though, that i totally depend on my support (thanks jacque). jacque is going to school for her RN too, and we both have difficulties, different ones, but diffiulties, the same, so she is my support, and I am hers.
one day, i will be able to fulfill my dream, therefore making me more capable of helping my children reach their dreams. my daughter, at age two, is determined to be a doctor, my son wants to be either a marine, or a paratrooper like daddy. we shall see if this passion of his to be a soldier will follow him, because at age 3 he was determined to be a paleontologist, lol.